Rise and shine

         So it is currently 5:45 and I am somewhere in SC heading to Orlando FL. I am traveling to do some mission work with my old youth group from when I was in public school. Our youth director, who happens to be a dear friend that I grew up with, is the one driving because if you know me, you know that I do not function well at night!
        Anyway so in between naps, conversations, sing-a-longs, and a few quick pit stops, the Devil has found time to slip in a few attacks knowing that my eyes are rarely, and I mean rarely, open during the wee hours of the morning. It has been a pretty consistent battle in just dealing with emotional junk. It started with anger and bitterness as a result of selfishness and then worked its way into the form of lust. It's frustrating to no end when the enemy takes a simple friendship and tries to tarnish it by twisting thoughts on at least one end.
        So after my 4:30-5:00 AM nap, I woke up very burdened with lust. My heart and mind felt trapped. I began to worry about how this could affect my ministry during my next encounter with this person. However, it was at that moment that I partook in one of the joys of being wide awake at the crack of dawn; I got to see the sunrise. I witnessed a line of clouds taking the form of a curtain as the sky became illuminated with golds and blues. Cirrus clouds had a pinkish glow to them and the sky was therefore painted the way God had intended it to look on this day.
It was at that moment that I thought of Matthew 6: 25-34:

""Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?

And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin,

yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'

For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

              I shared this sat of verses with a very dear friend who is dealing with her own troubles and needed the reminder just like I do now. Even though the verses speak about anxiety in regards to provision, I can see application for myself. Jesus challengers the listeners to think about the birds of the air and lilies of the field. Neither worry about being clothed or storing up food. Yet our Father in Heaven provides for them each day. If He provides for the birds and the grass how much more will he provide for His children?!? That is what I was reminded of this morning. I saw this promise in the sunrise! We serve a faithful God; one who promises not to allow us to be tempted beyond our control. He will provide an escape. He will provide freedom from the lust I faced this morning or from whatever any of us will face. The freedom comes in the form of His son, Jesus Christ, who died to free me from the very sin I encountered at 5:00 AM! Glory be to the one who saves our souls! Who preserves our spirits for the day we are delivered into His kingdom!!




The sunrise looked similar to this, although this picture does 0 justice!

In Christ Alone

"He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power." 

-- Hebrews 1:3

I give my thanks to a dear friend who spontaneously but this verse on the door to my apartment. This verse has captivated my recently. It has caused me to be in awe of the power, beauty, character etc. of Jesus. 

"In the days of his flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications, with loud cries and tears, to him who was able to save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverence. Although he was a son, he learned obedience through what he suffered. and being made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation to all who obey him, being designated by God a high priest after the order of Melchizedek."

--Hebrews 5: 7-10

So beautiful, so humbling, so powerful, that here is my Savior, fully human, bearing the punishment of man that should be placed upon me! 

Yet, somehow, I have recently allowed myself to listen to lies that my hope needs to be in how gifted I am with music, or how many people come up to talk to me after church, or how often I am called and invited over. Somehow, I lost my identity in Christ. My identity became fueled by the approval of others. Now I know that very indirectly do I connect the scripture from above with what I write here, but in my walk I needed to be captivated by Jesus again. That's really all I have to say at this point. However, I will share this song with you that a very awesome couple shared with me a while ago. 

"In Christ Alone"

by Keith and Kristyn Getty

Ezekiel

       I have spent the past few weeks reading Ezekiel. Up to the chapter that I am at now, it has been filled with prophecies foretelling God's judgement on Jerusalem and surrounding nations. There are headings for various sections of the chapters that speak of the condemnation; such as "Jerusalem will be destroyed" (chp 5), "Judgement against idolatry" (chp 6), "False prophets condemned" (chp 13) etc.  Chapter 34 starts, as the commentary describes it, the final division of the book, where instead of condemnation, Ezekiel's prophecies speak of the restoration of Israel that will come through God! How beautiful it is that the restoration begins with God searching for his sheep and seeking them out. He (God) will then place His shepherd (Jesus) over them! How wonderful! I leave you with Ezekiel 34: 11-31 (ESV). I pray that you will see Jesus, and how great out Shepherd will be to us! 

          "For thus says the Lord God; Behold, I, I myself will search for my sheep and will seek them out. As a shepherd seeks out his flock when he is among his sheep that have been scattered, so will I seek out my sheep, and I will rescue them from all places there they have been scattered on a day of clouds and thick darkness. And I will bring them out from the peoples and gather them from the countries, and will brig them into their own land. And I will feed them on the mountains of Israel, by the ravines, and in all the inhabited places of the country. I will feed them with good pasture, and on the mountain heights of Israel shall be their grazing land. There they shall lie down in good grazing land, and on rich pasture they shall feed on the mountains of Israel. I myself will be the shepherd of my sheep, and I myself will make them lie down, declares the Lord God. I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak, and the far and the strong I will destroy. I will feed them in justice. 

            "As for you, my flock, thus says the Lord God: Behold, I judge between sheep and sheep, between rams and male goats. Is it not enough for you to feed on the good pasture, that you must read down with your feet the rest of your pasture; and to drink of clear water, that you must muddy the rest of the water with your feet? And must my sheep eat what you have trodden with your feet, and drink what you have muddled with your feet? 

               "Therefore, thus says the Lord God to them: Behold, I, I myself will judge between the fat sheep and the lean sheep. Because you push with side and shoulder, and thrust at all the weak with your horns, till you have scattered them abroad, I will rescue my flock; they shall no longer by a prey. And I will judge between sheep and sheep. And I will set up over them on shepherd, my servant David, and he shall feed them: he shall feed them and be their shepherd. And I, the Lord, will be their God, and my servant David shall be prince among them. I am the Lord; I have spoken. 

                "I will make with them a covenant of peace and banish wild beasts from the land, so they may dwell securely in the wilderness and sleep in the woods. And I will make them and the places all around my hill a blessing, and I will send down the showers in their season; they shall be showers of blessing. and the trees of the field shall yield their fruit, and the earth shall yield its increase, and they shall be secure in their land. And they shall know that I am the Lord, when I break the bars of their yoke, and deliver them from the hand of those who enslaved them. They shall no more be a prey to the nations, no more shall the beasts of the land devour them. They shall dwell securely, and none shall make them afraid. And I will provide for them renowned plantations so that they shall no more be consumed with hunger in the land, and no longer suffer the reproach of the nations. And they shall know that I am the Lord their God with them, and that they, the house of Israel, are my people, declares the Lord god. And you are my sheep, human sheep of my pasture, and I am your God, declares the Lord God."

Confession

"Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed fervently that it might not rain, and for three years and six months it did not rain on the earth. Then he prayed again, and heaven gave rain, and the earth bore its fruit. My brothers, if anyone among you wanders from the truth and someone brings him back, let him know that whoever brings back a sinner from wandering will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins."

-- James 5: 13 - 20

              There was a period of time that I truly wrestled with God over whether I needed to confess a certain sin to other believers in my life. A sin that I had confessed to God and knew that I had received forgiveness for, but still remained a consistent struggle in my life. What would be the advantage of me sharing that sin? It would only show people how sinful I am (there's some good old pride for ya)! What are people going to think if I confess it to them? They are going to want nothing to do with me (still more pride)! Meanwhile, at home, at Kroger's, and various other places, the sin was almost mocking me with how often it would appear and plague me! 

              Finally, after months of praying and seeking God's wisdom on the matter, the moment came for me to open up. A friend shared the set of verses from James. I read it realizing how foolish I was in not seeking the prayer, the aid, the strength from loved ones in fighting this sin. Yes, the Lord has already won the victory for me, but others needed to know to hold me accountable. Others needed to know so that they could pray for me. Others needed to join me in this fight. Ultimately though, God needed to receive the glory for how He was and is cleansing and giving me a new heart. 

              So over the course of a few months I entered this period of confession, where, to brothers in various numbers, I became transparent confessing my past, the struggles I face, and how others could pray for me. I confessed the sins and how from it other sins arose in the form of lies and deception, but glory be to God that He still chose to use me despite it! After each confession we prayed and I instantaneously felt deeper strength in the Lord. As the stronghold from the enemy was weakened, the "rock" that I was standing on became wider and sturdier. The Lord revealed to me how much progress He had made in cleansing me; how I was a son of His, never to return to the sin that used to corrupt and deteriorate me. 
              The period has essentially ended with my girl friend and I confessing our brokenness to one another. We felt that it was important for our relationship if we were transparent with one another. After the confessing, Christ looked so much more beautiful and our relationship was strengthened as Christ serves as the basis of it. We will grow stronger together, and be able to glorify our Lord more, as we become more saturated in His truth and spirit! 

              The verses from James really came to life during this time. There is strength in confessing our sins not only to God, but to others in the faith who will earnestly join us in the battle. It is safe to say that what remains of the sin that haunted me is just dust. Even though there are still memories and other aspects of the sin remaining, I know that it does not affect me in the way it used to. My eyes are fixed upon the cross where even before I was born, Jesus, my savior, died for this sin. There is no longer a stronghold. The enemy has been shamed and defeated! 

           

How Great is Our God

Ok, so if you know me, you probably know that right now I am obsessed with this video. The song itself is by Chris Tomlin and this particular version is on his "How Great is Our God: The Essential Collection" album. This video comes from the 2012 Passion conference in Georgia. To quote a dear friend; "So good!"

Peace above all else

              When I was younger, Thanksgiving always brought child-like resentment. Here I was with a week off from school and the last thing that I wanted to do was pack my bags drive three hours over 6 mountains to Harrisonburg, VA, where what awaited my elementary eyes was a culture shock. I went from as much of a city as my hometown can be (which is not very much) to farmland, horse and buggies, and cows. Who, I thought, in their right 8-9 year old mind, would want to leave their TV, and Nintendo system, for no entertainment of any kind. (Remember, I was eight and did not know any better). You see, my family on my dad's side are Mennonites, and if you want to go learn more about them, I would suggest Googling them.
               So each Thanksgiving was filled with trips to the homes of distant relatives, conversations (me merely listening) of tractors and things associated with farming, news from the "valley" which encompassed who married who, who moved into who's house, etc. and other things boring to an eight-year-old. Everything culminated on Thanksgiving Day when my aunts, uncles, and their children brought their horse and buggies, bicycles, and few cars to my grandparents and the feast was underway. As family came in I did my best to shake hands, answer any questions about school, and stay as close as I could to my dad. When the blessing was said and a hymn was sung, (in beautiful 4-part harmony I might add) my dad went off with my mom to the "adult" table and I found a spot amongst cousins.
               At that point in time I had little in common with my cousins. We lived different lives and our priorities were different. As we got older, cousins got married, great grandchildren started joining and conversations got easier. Some cousins started incorporating electronics into their lifestyle and that eased my self centered mindset. Along with being selfish, I was very naive with a little of the naivete stemming from my age.
               The past few Thanksgivings have been vastly different. I look forward to going to see my family. The 3 hour drive (which becomes 2 1/2 depending dad's caffeine intake) is an opportunity to talk with my dad. Our conversations are steadily growing deeper, and I am blessed for that. I enjoy the absence of electronics as it allows me to draw closer to God. Ah, God, the first time our Creator hs been mentioned in this blog for purposeful reasons. It was not until the last few years of college and into adult hood that my mindset has changed,  and I have gained an identity now solely in Christ.  This has caused me to notice how God is the center of my family's life. It is evident in the way they live their lives.

              "Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

-- Colossians 3: 12-17

"For Whoever desires to love life and see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit; let him turn away from evil and do good; let him seek peace and pursue it. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayer. But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil."

-- 1 Peter 3:11

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
-- Philippians 4:4-7

Are you catching a theme? 

                   In watching the way my grandmother tirelessly moves through out the house, in hearing the joyful hums from my aunts as they prepare the meal, and in hearing my cousins and uncles speak about getting up and milking cows I am overwhelmed by seeing the peace in their lives. It is the peace in Philippians which "surpasses all understanding" and frees them from any stress or anxiety. It is the "peace of Christ" in Colossians, that rules in their hearts from their daily obedience to the Lord and denial to their earthly bodies. It is the peace that comes from living in reverence to the Lord. Peace the comes from loving all of God's creation here on earth! The list could go on, but, finally, it is the peace that for 21 years I could not see because I only saw what I felt they were "missing," because sin had blinded my eyes and I was transfixed on earthly matters. 

                   To me, these three sets of verses speak about the role peace should play in our lives. It is peace that is given as a gift from God as Christ reigns in our hearts. It smoothes out each of our steps so we are never rushed between places. It comes from faith in our Father and belief in the promises He has made for us. As His children, He has promised to protect us. My grandmother never takes this for granted, but lives everyday knowing her day is given to God and He will provide all she needs for the day. 

                   My grandmother, aunts, and uncles are living examples of Colossians 3: 12-17. They have been "clothed...with garments of salvation" (Isaiah 61:10) and their lives are governed by the Lord. I love them, but I love and praise the Lord even more for blessing me with them. 

Valley of Dry Bones

I came across Ezekiel 37: 1-14 a few weeks ago in a small group study about being born again. Upon reading this set of verses, my heart just sang out to the Lord. What was gathered was that the verses depict life before Christ, when we were dead to sin, vs when Christ enters our lives and we are born again.

              "The hand of the Lord was upon me, and he brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord and set me down in the middle of the valley; it was full of bones. And he led me around among them, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley, and behold, they were very dry. And he said to me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" And I answered, "O Lord God, you know." Then he said to me, "Prophesy over these bones, and say to them, " O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord. Thus says the Lord God to these bones: Behold, I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live. And I will lay sinews upon you, and will cause flesh to come upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and you shall live, and you will know that I am the Lord."

               So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I prophesied, there was a sound, and behold, a rattling, and the bones came together, bone to its bone. And I looked, and behold, there were sinews on them, and flesh had come upon them, and skin had covered them. But there was no breath in them. Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath; Thus says the Lord God: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live." So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived and stood on their feet, an exceedingly great army. 

               The he said to me, "Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. Behold, they say, 'Our bones are dried up, and our hope is lost; we are indeed cut off.' Therefore prophesy, and say to them, Thus says the Lord God: Behold, I will open your graves and raise you from your graves, O my people. And I will bring you into the land of Israel. And you shall know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves, and raise you from your graves, I my people. And I will put my Spirit within you, and you shall live, and I will place you in your own land. Then you shall know that I am the Lord; I have spoken, and I will do it, declares the Lord."

Grace be with you! 

"No More My God"

"No more, my God, I boast no more 

Of all the duties I have done;

I quit the hopes I held before, 

To trust the merits of Thy Son.

Now, for the loss I bear His name,

What was my gain I count my loss;

My former pride I call my shame, 

And nail my glory to His cross. 

Yes, and I must and will esteem

All things but loss for Jesus' sake;

O may my soul be found in Him, 

And of His Righteousness partake! 

The best obedience of my hands

Dares not appear before Thy Throne;

But faith can answer Thy demands, 

By pleading what my Lord has done."

-- Isaac Watts